Life As I Know It

so i just got back from california with the girls for our senior trip.
and let me tell you...wherever my friends go...drama follows.
there didn't need to be as much drama as there was on this trip. i have to admit, i was a part of some of this drama. but girls for a week all living together... i cannot do.
other than that, the trip was awesome. i got to lay by the beach, hang out by the pool, get sunburned, get gelatos everynight, eat a lot of food, and best of all: go to disneyland. the good part about this trip though was not having any parents around. with no rules. i'm almost ready for college because of that but almost not ready for college just because I don't want to leave everyone.
so...i will be here for another week until i go to WSU to visit it for ALIVE for three days. and then I'm off to WILDHORSE to be a student leader for Young Life.
call me andrea or i will call you. either way. i want to learn about this new house of yours!!!!!!!

4 more days until graduation
:-(  :-)

I can't believe I only have one more week until graduation. I have been so happy to finally get out and start college this past year that I haven't even realized how sad it is going to be to leave everyone. But this last week has hit me really hard. I honestly am so scared to leave and start a new life at WSU. I won't be able to see everyone every single day like I am used to. I remember dropping my sister off at WSU and saying goodbye. I was so excited to start 7th grade. 7th GRADE!! that is insane! Where did everything go? It feels like yesterday that I was just walking into the new high school at Redmond and being so afraid of the big seniors. I'm not going to see more than half of the people at my school ever again. Maybe at my 10 year reunion, but that is a long while. I mean I probably won't be friends with some of my close friends anymore after I leave. 

I just wanted to say a thanks to andrea though. this is why I started writing this thing. You are my best friend and I have never had a relationship with someone like you. You know pretty much everything about me. All of my ups and downs, every hard time I have ever been through, every happy time, you have always been there for me. I can't even begin to thank you enough for always being there for me. I always have a great time with you and I can always be myself around you. I know I didn't take a bunch of time to hang out with you this year, and I am so sorry for that. You will always be my best friend and you are always going to be there with me. Even in spirit at WSU. I love our memories that we have together. London, cute boys at the trailer park, starbucks at 4 in the morning, cranberries, sleepovers, odyssey tapes, the trampoline, teenagers, fatty/aboobica/elijah, listening to songs in the car. There are way too many to list. I know you went through a rough time when you're parents got divorced, but I am so happy that I was able to go through that with you and be there for you like you have been there for me. So, as I go off to college at the end of the summer, I want you to know that I am going to miss you. I am not going to forget you when I go off to WSU and I will always be able to hang out when I come back. I mean, we ARE going to move to New York together! I love you Andrea Nicole Burke and thank you so much for everything! 12 years and counting...

2 more days until CP Presentation :-(
2 more days until Uncensored Assembly
5 more days until....PROM!!!!!!!!!!
13 more days until...the last day of school!!!
15 more days until....GRADUATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this year has gone by ^{SO FAST.} 

of high school. and the drama that follows it.
and if people can have the right to tell me that I'm not a good christian because I'm not letting someone into my prom group, you better second think that. because i'm not going to let someone tell me i'm a bad christian because I have a problem with someone. I'm only human.
And for them to tell me they aren't judging me? screw you.

oh yeah,
and i got asked to prom today. prom will be fun no matter what. I'm not going to let anyone ruin it.

TODAY SUCKED.

I GOT INTO WSU!!!!
I GOT INTO WSU!!!!
I GOT INTO WSU!!!!
I GOT INTO WSU!!!!

can you tell i'm excited??

i hate having nothing to do.
andrea, come home.

So...as people everyday ask me, "have you decided where your going to college? Are you nervous to leave your friends?"
and what answer do I give them everyday?
"I don't know yet. I haven't decided. I haven't heard back from WSU yet. And yes, I'm pretty nervous but kind of excited."
Do you know what I WANT to say to them?
"SHUT UP! I DON'T KNOW YET! STOP ASKING ME! YOU HAVE BEEN THE 2039283092830294027840 PERSON THAT HAS ASKED ME THAT TODAY! OF COURSE I AM NERVOUS! WHO WOULDN'T BE NERVOUS? I HAVE LIVED IN REDMOND FOR PRACTICALLY MY ENTIRE LIFE AND NOW I AM LEAVING FOR 4 YEARS. LEAVING A LIFE THAT I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT. WOULDN'T YOU BE NERVOUS? STOP ASKING ME! I HAVEN'T GOTTEN EXCEPTED TO WSU YET AND I'M GOING INSANE! now...if you ask me one more time...i swear to you that I will punch you in the face.

I had a breakdown today. My dad told me I needed to switch cars with my mom and I freaked out. I hate living in this apartment and not getting any privacy. I hate this apartment and I don't want to live in Duvall my last summer before college. I hate that my parents moved me out of my perfect house right before my senior year. I miss that house so much.
But hey, who says life is perfect right?

2 months and I'm out of high school. That is so weird.

I'm so scared to leave.

It's unnatural you belong to me, I belong to you
^ Boyz II men. so 90's.
It's great.
TOLO DRESS SHOPPING TODAY!
yesssss.
so excited